marathon update ..

25 

just 25 days until the marathon .. yes i am nervous and anxious now .. i often wake up feeling like i am going to throw up i am so nervous .. god help me in 25 mornings please .. after the "i think that i am going to throw up" feeling goes away .. i tell myself that i don't have anything to worry about .. i have worked hard and accomplished lots of things in my 40 years of life .. i gave birth .. twice .. yes with lots and lots of pain medicine but that doesn't count .. i still gave birth and for the record cash was very uncooperative about the whole process so he counts twice .. i taught school .. produced the 6th & 7th grade yearbook on my own .. was student council sponsor .. science department head and worked on my masters all at the same time .. i have written a thesis and published it .. 

yes i know that not one of those things .. except maybe the giving birth part .. they say it is as hard on your body as running a marathon .. is like actually running a marathon but they are still things that i worked hard for and accomplished so they are the same to me and really .. that is all that matters at this point in time ..

the fact that i believe i can do it .. and right now i think that i can .. i can whip out 26.2 miles without even blinking an eye .. 

maybe because i am totally dreaming .. 

no i am not dreaming .. 

i can do it .. i will do it .. and when i am done i am going to tell you all about it .. 

and yes you have to listen !!